July 23, 2019
Yep, I sure have changed.
You cannot go through and experience what I have experienced without changing. Change can be good and I think that my changes are wonderful, but some may think otherwise. Guess what… Not my problem. I will continue to love you, but I must continue to live for me. Those who truly love me understand that and continue to stand in my corner and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
You must understand that deep grief and depression will change you and challenge your existence in this world. When you have to fight the enemy so hard just to exist… you change. You do not come out of the battle the same. There are some scars.
When I say that I have changed, I mean that God has made me stronger, resilient, and I realize that I can do more than survive. I can live! By any means necessary I will live.
Let me tell you this if I continue to not only get up out of my bed every morning but also have pure joy in my heart and my soul, those days are all very good days. I am happy to report the most days are now very good days!
You see I have to change to adapt to the world I am living in, in my present state. Now before you say, “You do not suppose to change to fit into the world.” I am not changing to fit the world I am adjusting to my circumstances. I can no longer afford to be the Lolita I used to be. Financially, physically, or emotionally, my points of views have changed. Let me explain: I wear glasses, so it is as if I am looking through my eyes and everything is blurry and unclear, but I have worn this same prescription for years. However, now since my vision as changed so does my prescription. My prescription had to be adjusted to adapt to the new changes in my eyes. My vision is very different than it was this time three years ago. This time three years ago I lived with a different set of circumstances, responsibilities, and hopes, which I still have but they are now different because I am different.
I am continually evolving into something new. God is doing something wonderful in me! God is leading me down a new and different direction, a new path, and I am trying to follow his lead. The Lord knows His daughter, and I may not do everything to his specifications but I am trying. I am still a beautiful masterpiece, yet I am still a work in progress, God is not through with me yet.
I love you all!!
Have a Wonderful and Amazing Morning!
There was an old song we used to sing in the choir when I was younger, by the Rev. James Cleveland;
Please be patient with me,
God is not through with me yet.
Please be patient with me,
God is not through with me yet.
When God gets through with me,
when God gets through with me,
I shall come forth,
I shall come forth like pure gold.
If you should see me and
I’m not walking right,
and if you should hear me
and I’m not talking right;
Please remember what God has done for me,
When He goes through with me,
I’ll be what He wants me to be.
Please Be Patient With Me “God Is Not Through with Me Yet”
Okay, I had one of those white blouses with the ruffles in the video!! It was a choir requirement! LOL
***Video and Picture courtesy of Youtube[Merlin] The Malaco Music Group (on behalf of Malaco Records); Peermusic, BMI – Broadcast Music Inc., and 2 Music Rights Societies
(James Clevland and Albertina Walker)
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