Friday, August 30, 2019
My word for this Friday is Restoration.
Restoration means a lot of things:
For me, restoration means reestablishing and discovering who I am outside of who I was. I am learning to find my own way with my rules. I can tell you in the past three years I have made tons and tons of mistakes. There were so many things I was not aware of or had never done. You must realize I went from my grandmother’s home to my husband’s house. My life was completely turned upside down in every single area! There are things I wish I knew, there are things I wish I hadn’t done, and many there are many things that I have done that I am very proud of. But…
For a while, I did whatever I wanted because I seriously was not planning on living for long. (Don’t be surprised or shocked... depression and grief are real, and I was suffering!) But then after hours of prayer and therapy, God convinced me of my worth on my own and that I was NOT going anywhere! He said He had somethings I needed to do; He was not finish with me. Now I needed to get my act together! I do have some major cleaning up in my life to do, but I know that I am not alone!
My life now is nothing like I thought it would be. Nothing worked out the way I wanted or the way I planned. However, my life is not bad, it’s not easy, it’s pretty good, but I am also learning every day how to move forward with the hand I have been given. God has placed some extraordinary people in my life that pray for me, check on me, and will continue to love me in spite of my defects, flaws, and imperfections.
They are my…
Let me leave you with this: Mostly we must know that God will love us, forgive us, never leave us, and guide us no matter what we do. He will always be there for us. Believe me; it took me a while to get back to this frame of mind and way of thinking.
What is left now… I continue to move forward, learn from my mistakes, and operate in the attitude of restoration. Meaning I will not be hard on myself for living and making mistakes. I am thankful to be alive, breathing, walking, testimony of HIS great love for me. I am a mess, but, HE will take this mess and turn it into a great message!
I love you all
Have a blessed an Amazing Weekend!