devil,
I am sure you meant to destroy me… but you did not!
I will never understand the reason behind your actions.
But know part of me died that day
Too young to realize…
That my opened mind and led to a world of…
Emotions…
Experiences…
Things not for a young girl…
Forever changed…
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Did you know what your actions would cost me?!
A lifetime of mistrust…
A lifetime of insecurities…
A lifetime of self-hate…
A lifetime of doubt…
A lifetime of pain…
A lifetime of shame…
Secrets destroy!
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What I could have been…
The things I could have done…
The places I could have went..
Dreams killed and destroyed
Paralyzed in a life that was not my own…
From the inside, looking out the window…
Screaming…
Yearning…
For the innocence lingering outside my view
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Then I heard you died…
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Emptiness inside…
Nothing to fill the hole
Engulfed in the darkness of the pit
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Did you go to Heaven or hell?
How many others suffered because of you?
What about my retribution…
What about my retaliation…
What about your punishment…
What about me, them, all of us…
Does it even matter?
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You see, you took NOTHING from me.
You may have delayed
You may have stalled
You tried it…
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A coward
A pawn
A cast-off
You allowed the devil to use you…
To steal, kill, destroy
Because HE loves me so much… I can finally forgive you!
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your glory, your control… stops here!
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No worries…
No worries???
Yes, no worries!
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Because I know a MAN…
HE loved me…
HE loved me before I knew me…
HE loved me before the foundations of the earth
HE loved me, and HE knows the number of hairs on my head
JESUS LOVES ME!
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Because of JESUS, I learned to TRUST!
Because of JESUS, I am SECURE!
Because of JESUS, I LOVE myself!
Because of JESUS, I have FAITH!
Because of JESUS, I have JOY!
Because of JESUS, I am BLESSED because HE is in me!
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Because of HIM, my dream delayed is NOT my dream denied!
Just another Blessing in the storm
I love you, JESUS!
Because of YOU, I live to dream again…
A Daughter of a KING